Summer Bucket List 2017

By this time next week, it will be June. And June means summer. And summer means hot and sweat and sunburn and mosquitoes and also a bunch of other unsavory things. But it is also a time of magic and rest and blah, blah, blah (or so I’ve heard).

Full disclosure, I kind of really dislike summer, guys. I’m very partial to winter, in case you’d forgotten. In comparison to the pristine cold of winter, summer is a sweaty sock (read: no bueno). But, being the extremely mature human that I am (because it’s not childish at all to abhor a season) I have decided to make the most of summer and try to enjoy myself a little. So, I’ve put together a bucket list for Summer 2017.

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In no particular order….

– finish Draft Four of Beasts *internal screaming*.

– submit Beasts for its editorial review (lol, kill me now).

– reread The Out of Time Series by Nadine Brandes (shocker).

– submit another piece of flash fiction in hopes of publication.

– finish my study of the book of Isaiah (I’ve got 21 out of 66 chapters done).

– purge some of my things in an attempt to have less things and live more simply/less tied to this world.

– launch my newsletter *cue the applause*.

– stay up through one night to see the sunrise.

– take advantage of all the daylight by getting up earlier and making use of long days yet still get my body enough rest to function healthily (doing this well is like trying to bring balance to the force: it may only work in theory).

– keep a vegetable garden (I will be taking full advantage of all the garden-wisdom of my friend, Amanda–she’s like a garden ninja-queen who can grow thyme from seed, and also she introduced me to bullet journaling, and so there’s that too).

– make decisions on the Penprints redesign and implement them (yeah, we’re all just going to ignore that I mentioned this like two months ago and still haven’t done it).

– drink allllllllll the water because I love water and I love drinking water because water is life and water keeps me from totally dying in awful summer.

– reread Embracing Obscurity by Anonymous (this is a book I think I’ll have to reread every year).

– go the month of July without listening to music (this one may kill me, but I want to rediscover the beauty in silence and the sounds of life).

– submit a devotional somewhere (um, wut?).

– go a day without technology of any kind.

– get a hammock; nap and read and write in said hammock.

– wear henna.

– visit two different farmers’ markets.

– wear face paint (because I can).

– get a skateboard and try to skateboard without colliding with the ground or cars or other people.

– go on a retreat.

– try to make a Nepali dish (Nepali food = so. good.).

– make soap (also with my friend, Amanda).

– own my pale skin. (I’ve got some very strong European lines on both sides of the family, and the little bit of Cherokee that’s in the mix all seems to have gone to my brother, Luke, who can tan in three minutes flat. I, on the other hand, have all the pale, European genes that just burn. This year, though, I’m not going to try to get tan in any way–no sprays or lotions or unprotected time in the sun. This year, I’m owning that I’m pale and choosing be happy that super light skin is healthier for me than burned or slightly tanned skin. *overly long spiel ended*)

– wear sunscreen like it’s my job (^^ refer to the previous item^^).

And that’s all I’ve got for today, kids.

What about you? Any fun summer plans? Do you have a summer bucket list?

With love,

Rosalie <3

P.S. – there is no post script for this post *collective gasp*.

How to Start a Bullet Journal [the award-winning sequel]

After my far too enthusiastic post a couple of weeks ago about my great love for my Bullet Journal, there was a huge outcry amongst my readers (so it was like 3 of you, but that’s basically huge) for a tutorial on how to start a Bullet Journal. Since I love you, my dear readers, so much, I am here to regale you with another Bullet Journal post. Hold onto your hats, kids, because this time I’ll be teaching you The Way of the Bullet Journal. You might want to take notes.

p.s. – Because I am so deep in The Way of the Bullet Journal, I’m not even sure if what I’m going to share makes sense to any brain but my own (not even kidding, kids). Seriously, though, it makes so much sense in my head, but it’s one topic that I struggle to articulate to others. SO, I’m including links to other articles/posts throughout this post in case I’m not making enough sense.

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~ Part One: What is a Bullet Journal? ~

Technically, it’s “an analog system for the digital age.” Now, I grabbed that definition of the official Bullet Journal site, and full disclosure, I had to look up the definition for analog. It was completely unhelpful. So, those of you who magically understand what an analog system is, yay for you. For the rest of us who are confused, I’ll try to explain it semi-concisely.

The creator of the Bullet Journal, Ryder Carrol, puts it this way: “It’s an analog system designed to track the past, organize the present, and plan for the future.”

A Bullet Journal is a completely customizable medley of organization, planning, lists, and sometimes art.

You can make a list of goals for the year in your Bullet Journal. You can also plan your day out in your Bullet Journal. You can track your spending in your Bullet Journal. You can keep a diary in your Bullet Journal. You can put doodles and sketches in your Bullet Journal. You can track your habits in your Bullet Journal. Basically, a Bullet Journal is all things to all people; it can be whatever you need it to be. Planner. Diary. Sketchbook.

The heart of Bullet Journaling is recording information and planning all sorts of things with speed and readability. This where the use of bullet points comes in. In a Bullet Journal, as much information as possible is conveyed through bullet points.

Boho Berry has a far more excellent explanation of a Bullet Journal in this post.

~ Part Two: Supplies ~

Yes, you need some supplies for your Bullet Journal.

  • Notebook (this one’s a major shocker)
  • One black-ink pen
  • Ruler (optional)
  • A pack of multicolor pens/colored pencils/fine-tipped markers (optional)

When it comes to picking out the right notebook for your Bullet Journal, there a couple things to keep in mind. There are “actual” Bullet Journals that you can buy off of the official Bullet Journal site, but you don’t need an “actual” Bullet Journal. If you want to hop over and buy one off of there, that’s fine, but if you’re looking for something that has a bit more of your personal flare, you’ll want to check out your local office supplies store (aka: the closest thing to heaven on earth).

Consider if you want lines, dots, grids, or blank pages. A lot of people seem to favor dotted grids for their Bullet Journals since it’s more distraction free than the lines or full grids but has a bit more structure to build off of than a completely blank page. But, dots, grids, and full blank pages are hard to come by in notebooks these days. So, you can just be like me and grab a notebook full of traditional lines and work with them or ignore them.

I mention the ruler just because you will likely need to draw lines of some kind at some point in your Bullet Journaling career, and a ruler makes sure that things don’t get wavy.

Also, the multicolor pens, etc.. are mentioned because a lot people like to add a lot of color and life and doodles to their Bullet Journals, but you don’t need them to keep a Bullet Journal.

Also, when it comes to size, you want something small enough to shove in your purse/backpack/briefcase fairly easily, and so keep it on the petite-medium side of things.

~ Part Three: The Elements of the Bullet Journal ~

NOTE: Before we move into this next part, one thing needs to be clear. Originally, the Bullet Journal was designed for planning and orginization, but a whole sub-culture has developed that fuses art with their planning. So, some Bullet Journals are minimalistic while others are dressed to the nines. You decide how you want your Bullet Journal to look. I just wanted to give you fair warning before you search “Bullet Journal” and are demolished by the pages and pages and pages of wildly intricate and decorated Bullet Journals. As you’ll see from some of the pics I’m including in this post, people do all sorts of crazy things in their Bullet Journals.

There are some key elements that make a Bullet Journal a Bullet Journal, that lend themselves so intrinsically to all that a Bullet Journal is that without them it wouldn’t function nearly so well. We’re about to dive into Deep Bullet Journal Lingo.

  • an index
  • the future log
  • collections

The Index.

You’ll want to set aside the first 2-3 pages of your Bullet Journal for your index. Your index is your table of contents. Anything important that goes into the Bullet Journal gets logged in the index with it’s page number so that you can find it more efficiently in the future.

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The Future Log.

The future log is usually put in the couple of pages that follow the index. Now, people have all sorts of varying ideas about what a future log is/should look like. Some say that it’s used for a year-at-a-glance, others say that if something is coming up, you just put it in the future log and that’s that (e.g. – “Hey, Mable. Lucy’s throwing her husband a birthday party on the 12th. Wanna come and bring a salad?” You would put something like this in your future log: June 12 – Lucy’s hubby bday party; bring salad).

So there’s this kind of future log:

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And then there’s a more decorative of future log:

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And there’s also this kind of future log:

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Since there are lots of ways to approach a future log, do a Google search for images and scroll through all the pictures until you come across a version that strikes your fancy.

Collections.

Collections make my heart happy. Collections are your lists of things. Books to read = a collection. Gratitude log = a collection. Weight tracker = a collection. Collections are one-two page lists of related things. (I keep all my collections in the back of my Bullet Journal so that they are easiest to get to.)

I have a collection of flash fiction ideas. I have a collection of all the birthdays of people I love. I have a collection of people who I want to endorse my novel when (if) it gets published.

When it comes to collections, the possibilities are quite nearly endless.

Here’s a collection of place this person/business has traveled to:

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Here’s collection of things a person is waiting to happen/receive:

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This person got very elaborate with her collection for books to read:

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The next three Bullet Journal terms are directly related to the planning aspect. We’ve got:

  • monthly spreads (aka: monthly logs)
  • weekly spreads
  • daily spreads (aka: daily logs)

Monthly spreads are usually at the beginning of each month in your Bullet Journal and usually include: monthly goals, monthly tasks, and a calendar of the month. Monthly spreads are perfect overviews for each month, basically mini-future logs.

Weekly spreads are at the beginning of each week. Here’s where you have your weekly tasks list and week-at-a-glance. You write up your to-dos and events for the week in the list and then plug them into specific days in the week-at-a-glance (this makes so much sense in my head, and so I hope it makes sense to you guys too).

Daily spreads are where you plan your day and record anything eventful. You can simply go with a to-do and event list, or you can plug all the stuff for your day into a schedule. The Bullet Journal is completely customizable, so just go with whatever works best for you.

Here’s an example of a very involved daily spread:

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Here’s a less specific but very decorated daily spread:

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~ Part Four: Further Reading ~

Okay, here is where I give you alllllllll the helpful articles and videos that have helped me as I navigated The Way of the Bullet Journal. I’ve only scratched the surface, really, but instead of regaling you with a whole series of my own posts that don’t exactly make much sense, I’ve decided just to send you out to the best places to get more information.

Places to search #bulletjournal for visual inspiration:

  • Youtube
  • Pinterest
  • Instagram

Specific links:

Check out Boho Berry’s series she did on Bullet Journaling. Her posts are full of very visually appealing photos that are well-suited for those who want to add art and doodles to their Bullet Journals.

Here’s a video from Ryder Carrol (the creator of Bullet Journaling) that captures the keys of Bullet Journaling.

This is an excellent post on Bullet Journaling that goes into signifiers, migration, and threading.

Another good one for the artsy people out there is this post from Bullet Journal Inspiration.

~ Conclusion ~

If this post did nothing else, I hope that it provided some good places for you to go to get more info on Bullet Journaling. It can be very overwhelming, and so I hope this post broke it down into a few more manageable bites.

Will you be starting a Bullet Journal? Tell me honestly: was this post helpful or just confusing? Will you put art into your Bullet Journal? Should I give you a tour of my Bullet Journal at some point in the near future?

With love,

Rosalie <3

P.S. – a shout-out to my parents who have been married 30 years today!!!!

I just really love my bullet journal and think that everyone should have one [a novel by me]

There was A Time when my days were passed in Chaotic Disarray. I darted around life as a mess, perpetually nine minutes late. I was as organized as a rabbit on caffeine (translation: not very organized at all). Those were the Dark Days.

But then I was trained in The Way of The Bullet Journal.

The Story of How I Was Trained in The Way of The Bullet Journal:

*my friend Amanda and I were discussing our goals for 2017 over grilled cheese*

Amanda: “And so I put it in my Bullet Journal so that I’d remember to do it everyday.”

Me: *chokes on drink* “You have a Bullet Journal?? I have heard of this thing, but what is it?”

Amanda: “I will show you.”

*I was converted to The Way of the Bullet Journal that very hour.*

I love my Bullet Journal (in case any of us had any doubt). This post is an attempt to tell you why and somehow convince you that you should keep a bullet journal of your own.

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I’m actually getting things done.

I set goals and make to do lists and plan my week and my day and I’m actually getting things done. So many times Before I learned The Way of the Bullet Journal (and, no, I won’t stop capitalizing that) someone could ask me what I did in the morning before work or what I got done on my day off and my reply would be: “Oh, you know, things. Some things happened, a lot of different things in fact, so many things for sure, you know.”

Was I all that productive Before my Bullet Journal?

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Now, I didn’t squander days away (for the most part) Before my Bullet Journal, but I didn’t make the best use of my time. But now that I have my Bullet Journal, things are getting done (novels are getting finished, blog posts are more consistent, etc..).

I’m less stressed about the things I have to do.

My Bullet Journal has helped me lay out goals, come up with plans, and realistically *collective gasp* approach my tasks lists.  Yes, I still get stressed because I’m still no expert on handling stress, BUT my Bullet Journal has lowered my stress levels because I feel like I’m actually aware of all the things that I have to do whereas Before my Bullet Journal, I was a bundle of confusion, stress, and chaos.

Speaking of confusion…

I’m not as forgetful.

I always have seventeen tabs open in my brain, and then there always used to be four tabs that I accidentally closed and then forgot about resulting all manner of awful moments of remembrance such as:

“Hey, Rosalie, have you sent that email to so-and-so yet?”

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“Rosalie, you took pictures of that, right?”

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“Have you called that place yet, Rosalie?”

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“Rosalie, did you give that calendar to Mr. Such-and-such?”

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Note: while this does still happen, it’s only about once a week these days instead of four times a day, and I’ve discovered a wonderful thing called Diversion.

“Have you done the research on that thing yet, Rosalie?”

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So now when I’m faced with questions such as: “Rosalie, have you….?”, “Rosalie, can you…?”, or “You need to…”, I can say:

“It’s going in my Bullet Journal.”

“Let me add that to my Bullet Journal.”

“It’s already in my Bullet Journal.”

“That’s a box in my Bullet Journal that’s already been filled in.”

Speaking of Bullet Journal boxes….

Filling in little check boxes is enormously rewarding.

Once I finish something that I put in my Bullet Journal, I get to fill in the little blank box next to it. It’s like checking something off a list, but so much better somehow. I think coloring in the little boxes releases endorphins (happy hormones) in my brain, and leaving boxes unfilled (aka: tasks unfinished) breeds cortisol (that’s a stress hormone) in my brain. No joke.

Getting stuff done is great, but being able to fill in the boxes next to that stuff in my Bullet Journal is even better.

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I have structure and flexibility.

“That’s impossible!” you may cry.

Well…

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It’s possible with my Bullet Journal. A Bullet Journal is the very definition of customizable on a day to day basis, and yet it provides structure for each day.

Before and After.

My life Before I learned The Way of the Bullet Journal:

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My life After I learned The Way of the Bullet Journal:

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Moral of the Story.

There are a so many more reasons why I love my Bullet Journal, but suffice it to say that I do not regret my Bullet Journal and I think that you all should go out and buy a notebook to be your Bullet Journal because Bullet Journal = literally the best thing since sliced bread.

Now, since I didn’t care to take the time to explain anything (psh, that would have made too much sense) about keeping a Bullet Journal or what it looks like or why check boxes are even involved and need to be filled in or how exactly it’s completely customizable and did not even mention the role Pinterest plays in Bullet Journaling, go Google it and prepare for your mind to be blown.

Let’s chat it up.

Have you heard of Bullet Journals before? Do you have one? Do you think you’ll start one (the correct answer is “yes”)? Why do you love your Bullet Journal?

With love,

Rosalie <3

P.S. – a special shout-out to Amanda for taking the time to show me her Bullet Journal and inspiring to start my own (as well as inspiring me in so many other ways).
P.P.S. – I still don’t get everything done, and I definitely don’t get it all done in a timely fashion, but most of it happens eventually, which is far better than some of it happening at some point which is how things went down before my Bullet Journal. #fulldisclosure

20 Ways to Fill Your Empty Notebooks

Raise your hand if you have more than five empty notebooks languishing somewhere in your house.

Okay, now keep your hand up if you have 10 empty notebooks. 15?? 20? 25??? 5000??

You can put your hands down now (full disclosure, I never saw if your hands were up or down for obvious reasons).

Any decent person has at least 3 empty notebooks in their custody at any given time. For those of you who don’t have 3 empty notebooks, well, we still love you (for the most part…. most of the time).

Ahem. This post is for the decent people who find themselves with an abundance of empty notebooks.

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  1. Bullet Journal (aka: The Ultimate Journal).

This is an amazing journal to keep because you can use it in so many ways. A bullet journal can be your day planner, your calendar, your money tracker, your book tracker, and where you keep track of your favorite names (wait, you don’t compulsively collect the names you like???) all in one. That is why this is The Ultimate Journal. It can hold as much or as little as you want.

  1. Devotions Journal.

The devotions journal is another essential. This is where you can write down all your notes from your quiet time 1) to help process what you’re learning 2) to write down tangible application (aka: action you will take in light of your time in devotions) and 3) to revisit them later.

  1. Favorite Quotes Journal.

Quotes are easy to like but difficult to keep track of if you don’t have a central place to keep them. Hence the favorite quotes journal. Find a quote you like, flip to a fresh page in this journal, and jot it down.

  1. Thanksgiving Journal.

Cultivating a thankful heart goes a long way when it comes to discontentment, anxiety, and even depression, and one way to work towards being more intentionally grateful is to keep a journal filled with things you’re thankful for. Try to come up with a couple new things to put in this journal every morning, and it will slowly change your attitude.

  1. Morning Pages.

Morning pages are supposed to be done right after you wake up in the morning. You tumble out of bed, grab a pen, and start scrawling. You’re supposed to write anything and everything that comes into your mind in an attempt to help you have greater focus throughout the day. Once you’ve scratched out three pages of stream-of-conscious thought, you set the pen down and begin your day. Personally, morning pages aren’t all that helpful for me, but they help Abbiee a lot, and so you should think about trying them out for a week.

  1. Reading Journal.

When reading a book (especially nonfiction), it can be very helpful to journal as you go to help process all the information that you’re taking in, and a journal dedicated to such a practice is perfect.

  1. Food Diary.

This one’s good for people who like to be fit. If you bite it, you write it.

  1. Writing Exercise Notebook.

No, not exercise like crunches or anything like that (I just wanted to clarify for those of us who are triggered by exercise). The writing exercises I’m talking about are free writing, answering a prompt, trying to rework a sentence, or any other writing related task given from a writing workbook/book on the craft. Instead of loose leaf pages floating around and piling up in awkward places, consolidate all your writing exercises to a single notebook.

  1. Language Journal.

This is for those of us who are learning a foreign language. If you don’t already keep a language journal, I don’t know how you survive. For me, keeping a language journal while taking Spanish helped me keep track of new rules, write down vocab to make into flashcards for later, conjugate verbs, etc.. So if you’re learning a new language, consider starting a language journal.

  1. Discipleship Journal.

A discipleship journal is a tracker of sorts for people who are discipling other people. After the disciple-maker meets with the disciple, say for lunch, the disciple-maker jots down a few things: thoughts on the meeting in general, specific things to pray for the disciple, good questions to ask the disciple at the next casual meeting, and so on and so forth. If you’re serious about discipleship, you may want to think about starting a discipleship journal.

  1. Blog Log.

Okay, this is not a log really, but “Blog Log” sounds better than “Blog Journal” or “Blog Notebook” (guys, how it sounds is half the importance of the whole idea). Everything blog related goes in this notebook: long hand drafts of posts, ideas for future posts, schedule for posts, etc.. Of course, because I’m obsessed only mildly with this blog, I’ve had a blog log for quite some time.

  1. Mindmapping.

Mind maps. I’m not sure if it’s one word or two, and they’re tricky things that I have yet to master BUT I’VE READ THAT THEY’RE SO HELPFUL. So go look them up and think about using one of your notebooks for mindmapping. (This point = perfect precision.)

  1. Poetry Journal.

If you have poetry skills–and maybe even if you don’t–put them to use in this journal.

  1. Doodle Practice Notebook.

So you doodle professionally (be honest, it’s most likely for your bullet journal). Why not keep all your doodles (aka: bullet journal practice) in one place?

  1. Mutual Love Note.

This is such a cute one for married couples! You exchange love notes in a journal that you swap back and forth, and it makes what’s called a Mutual Love Note.

  1. Novel Notes.

Anything related to your novel goes in here: outline, character sketches, snippets of dialogue, etc.. If it pertains to your novel, it goes in here. This is helpful so that you aren’t digging around your desk for that scrap of napkin you wrote that piece of backstory on because it all goes in the novel notebook.

  1. Your Novel.

In the event that you are a slightly insane yet very swanky almost-human (aka: an author), you can choose to write your novel out by hand. With a pen. In a notebook. By hand. With a pen. By hand. Your whole novel. With a pen. In a notebook. By hand. I may be repeating things because I’m in awe of people who do this; namely you, Nadine Brandes.

  1. Flash Fiction Journal.

Personally, I like to write out the first drafts of my flash fictions by hand. Keeping all these rough (very rough) draft flash fictions in a journal helps me know where to find them and somehow makes me feel like a genius (true story, kids, and it’s got nothing to do with the fact that my flash fiction journal is a blue notebook that has “Brilliant Ideas” emblazoned on the cover).

  1. Memory Journal.

I wasn’t sure what to call this one. It’s the very base idea of a journal, the most fundamental kind that has ever been kept–a diary, a vault for memories made of paper and ink. You track history and emotion and upheaval and the daily grind in this bad boy. It is, perhaps, the first kind of journal.

Well, I’m going to abruptly and awkwardly end this post now with a misshapen bookend.

What do you usually use notebooks for? Do you have any empty ones lying around? Do you think you’ll use any of the ideas listed above?

With love,

Rosalie

P.S. – the amazing Kara Swanson is still accepting applications to the launch team for The Girl Who Could See!!! Go sign up and spread the word with me!

P.P.S. – who here noticed that I skipped #19?

P.P.P.S. – who here now feels like the title of this post is a misleading lie in light of the previous post script? And don’t raise your hand because we already went over the whole hand-raising thing not working at the beginning of this post.

Train Thoughts: Resting Up & Pouring Out

It’s Tuesday.

Penprints on a Tuesday? What heresy is this okay, it’s not actually heresy, but whateva? Well, hopefully you’ll understand by the end of this post why this is landing in your inbox on a Tuesday.

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I didn’t spend Easter at home. Instead, I hopped on a southbound train to visit some beloved people of mine: my brother, Luke, at college; my good friend, Allie (also at college); my grandparents; and my cousins.

I was excited for it in my head–I miss them all, Luke especially–but I was tired, not physically but emotionally and spiritually. It wasn’t one big thing that wore me down, just many smaller things falling on me, steadily eroding.

And I was filling up nearly every day in my quiet time with God, but it was never quite enough to carry me through, like I couldn’t get completely full, like it was never enough to compensate for how much emotional and spiritual energy I was spending. So I ran aground, came up dry, emptied, tired, and disheartened.

But then my train arrived.

Allie picked me up at the train station, looking like the perfect picture of all my summer memories of her and driving a car called “Karen”. She opened her home to me and let me stay with her while I was in town; I hadn’t seen her in months.

The first chunk of time was spent with Allie, catching up with her and learning about her life over crepes (I didn’t even know what crepes were until she showed me).

The Story of How I Learned About Crepes:

Allie: “Want to get bubble tea and crepes?”

Me internally: “What’s a crepe?”

Me externally: “Sure!”

Allie: “What kind of crepes do you like?”

Me: “Oh, you know, um….”

Allie: *laughing* “Do you know what a crepe is?”

Me: “Ugh, no.”

Allie: *laughing more* “Rosalie! Okay, they’re…..”

Conclusion: crepes are scrumptious.

We sang Rend Collective in the car. We ate watermelon cookies and laughed when my teeth turned red. We tried on bunches of sunglasses. We talked about God and what we’re learning and how we’re actually doing. We took Polaroids and sang while she strummed her guitar.

And it was good.

Then I was with Luke. I finally met all of his roommates and saw him lead his small group. I saw the place where he works (Luke At Work is such a cute Luke) and saw the airport where he learns. I laid on the floor of his room while he read me reviews of the laptop he found to replace my dead one. For almost an hour. Because he made it his personal mission to find me the best laptop. We rode his motorcycle and went hiking and stared at the sky and talked about church and love and life and hard things and blessings and happy things. He took me to a Casting Crowns concert, and we worshiped together to some of my favorite music.

There were so many other good things about this trip.

I spent a night with my grandparents and heard my Grandpa play his trumpet on Resurrection Sunday. I saw my cousins and we shared music and took a walk and laughed so much and cried a little too.

But it was good.

I went into this trip with nothing to give, but I came out of it full. It was rest, the rest that I so needed. It was a blessing to me, and the Holy Spirit did great work in me. He reminded me of my own weakness, my hopeless dependence on Him, my inability to do any good on my own, and He taught me the value of a pause.

Sooner or later, we all run out.

We all end up like a charred, crumbling match, essentially useless because we’ve burned up, we’ve spent ourselves.

And that’s why we need to take time away. We need to step back for a few days and relearn how to be still in God, we need to be away from those who drain and surround ourselves with those who fill.

Guys, using yourself up is not noble.

Never retreating is not godly or any shade of right–it’s arrogant and detrimental to your ministry. And you don’t necessarily need to go on a weekend trip to regroup every time you’re tired, but you do need to be intentional about taking rests and serious about seeking the filling of the Holy Spirit.

But we are not filled for our good alone.

We are filled to pour into others. And when we run low, we seek rest. And when we rest, we seek filling again. And when we’re full, we empty ourselves in others. And then we rest, and the cycle goes around and around.

Resting. Filling. Emptying.


These have just been all the jumbled thoughts that have been running through my head while I rode trains home today.

Tell me what you’re thinking.

With love,

Rosalie <3

P.S. – go listen to Train Station by The Gray Havens because the imagery takes my breath away and makes my soul happy.